Self doubt can be the most paralyzing feeling you experience. You can be sprinting down your path full of confidence when from no where comes self doubt and knocks you sideways. It stuns you and blocks you. It stands in front of you mocking the very things you believe. Tearing every shred of assurance you have away. It can be a terrifying experience as there is no way of seeing it coming. It often comes when after being passionately involved in something for so long with careless abandon and complete self confidence that you are going in the right direction, when suddenly you look up and don’t have a clue where you are or how you got there!
You look back at what you have been doing as if it is the first time you have seen it. It looks strangely unlike how it was in your mind, only a few moments before. Is this mine? Has someone swapped my life for another’s without my knowledge? Then, once the panic subsides, you look again at whatever it is you have been doing. Your eyes seem to adjust to what you are seeing and you realize that on the most part you like what you see. A few adjustments here and there should have this back on track in no time, and the smile begins to return.
So many times in the past I either failed to wait before trashing what I had done, or worse failed to look up when charging through life. I came to realize that self doubt happens to everyone but it’s how we deal with it is the difference between those that create and those that freeze. Whatever it is you do understand that there will come a time that you need to look at your work or self and be honest with what you see. It may not always be great, but everything in life is a work in progress, there is no such thing as perfection, just a constant adjustment process that keeps you moving forward. How fast or far forward comes down only to you.